frustrated

yesterday we ate breakfast at shamba at 9am. besides two baby bananas we did not eat again until 7pm. our driver, that brought us back to town from shamba, took a completely different route without telling anyone and we were therefore unable to stop to eat or use the restroom. the drive took longer also. he did this because he wanted to drop money off to his brother which was out of the way... i am still amazed at how little people here consider others.
we arrived to no electricity, which wasn't the end of the world, but it wasn't what we were expecting. we ate at the chips mi ai place down the road to escape the rest of the world. when we finished we returned to the house, interacted with a few students (i think we both had more patience after having eaten), took bucket showers and went to bed.
this morning we awoke to no showers and to the sound of the water cup scraping the bottom of the water barrel. this is frustrating because the tank was filled to the rim before we left. there were two guys here and neither thought to refill the tank when it got low. no one was there to buy water from, so in order to be able to use the restroom i had to wait for iris to finish washing her undies (cause all of them were dirty and she didn't have any left) so that i would have water to flush with. in the process of this we find out there is no water, the water has been cut off completely and no one knows when it will come back on. of course this could have been prevented if the two guys here (one of which housed company) would have thought to have the decency to put water back in the tank, but they didn't.
i thought that the younger one (who is 19, first time out of the country and is from an affluent family) was going to see if he could find someone to fetch water for us (sometimes the people will go a long way to get water for you, of course it costs you, but whatever), but when he returned and i asked him about it he simply responded "oh no! i went to get my soccer cleats fixed. i saw a cart but didn't see a guy so i just kept going." i didn't even know what to say! i was beyond words! then he says "don't worry you will live!" i took a deep breath locked my jaw and left the premises as i held down all the words i wanted to say to him about his self-righteous attitude and how everything has been done for him here and he has not once offered to pay. i realize this is a teaching moment, but it also not one i am qualified to handle at the moment. or maybe i just don't want to. (as i type the electricity has come back on! so that is good, now the water?)
i do not deal well with disrespect, you could ask my students about that.
today we are meeting with a pastor to see if his church will be a partner with a church to help sponsor students. i am excited to see how this goes. i will not actually be an active participant in the conversation but these conversation are beneficial to me for experience.
we are also suppose to make a business plan for some girls that are trying to start a cake business. we are hoping to help them learn to bake cakes and then for them to be able to sell them. i hope this works well.
God help me not to hang on to my anger, to not rerun hypothetical conversations over in my head. help me to have patience and grace for those that i am lacking towards. help me to have Your heart.
we leave for our travels on Wednesday. we are not completely certain how will we get to Malawi since the information we were given before seems to not be true (we thought there was a ferry going across the lake). right now we are thinking of going through Mozambique. Pray for us as we try to figure these things out and that God will put the right people in our paths. I am excited about visiting Malawi because there will be an orphange and school but ALSO a place for widows where they teach the skills to make money. this seems to be James 1:27 played out and i'm excited to see :)
soorry for the blurb on my frustrations. hoping that now the electricity is back on we can get water. water is so essential... showering, flushing toilets, making anything, laundry, drinking... the list goes on... i guess that is why Jesus said "I am Living Water." We never run out of Him. there is never a lack of supply of Him no matter what is going on in the world around us. THANK JESUS THAT THIS IS TRUE!
working through what it is God would have me do, will write more later. thank you all for your prayers.