In Atlanta now... Getting ready to fly out tomorrow. I kept thinking I should've flown out of Tallahassee or Jacksonville or even Valdosta for various reasons, but I am glad I didn't. I am so thankful for this extra time I have gotten to spen with mom and dad today. We have had quite the adventure. Prolly the coolest was when we decided to go to the airport and then backtrack to find a hotel, lol. Well I don't think I have ever been so close to the runway! I was driving but for a moment I completely forgot that I was and found myself staring in awe at the planes going over our heads! I know I'm like a kid sometimes and I pray that I never lose that child-likeness (after all Jesus said those are the ones that would inherit the kingdom). Dad and I rolled the windows down to get the full effect and then we all laughed! It was great. You can hear the planes before you see them, so over and over we would say "here comes another one!" it was great. Well the hotel we are staying at is really close to the airport so every time we go outsid I can't help but stare up at the sky and think wow! (I noticed mom and dad staring too, lol) tomorrow maybe someone will be looking up at my plane and that will make them smile too :)
Last night I laid in bed and thought "this is the last night I will sleep in this bed for 6 weeks." there have been a lot of lasts for 6 wks in the past few days. When I think of it like this way I get really anxious and I find the verse in my head,
Philippians 4:6
The Message (MSG)
6-7Don't fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God's wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It's wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life.
Then I remember also that God has called me to this trip, He has confirmed it over and over by supplying for my every need. He has a plan for my life that He is slowly unveiling to me. He is giving me a righteous discontentment and an intolerance. At the very same time He has taught me over the years that not everyone understands. Some people are hardhearted, stone-cold... Past the point of being convicted by the things that come out of there mouths and from their hearts. They cannot see that every person, no matter the color of their skin, no matter their lifestyle and especially no matter whether we agree with them, like them or love them or not, HE LOVES THEM!
A lady at the store yesterday asked me where I was going and I told her that I wAs going to Africa. She said sarcastically "don't you get enough of that here?" I smirked and said "it's not the same..." I must've pissed her off cause she didn't have anything tot say after that. I wanted to say so much wrong, tell her of her ignorance, tell her that it's "Christians" like her that make matters worse, tell her that... Well I wanted to tell her a lot of things but I bowed my head and prayed, "God forgive her... She knows what she is saying and doing but her heart is too hard... Lord forgive her and soften her heart to see how wrong she really is..." I'm not perfect. I never claimed to be, but I am coming to understand that you cannot lump people together and make assumptions about them, and if you are a Christ-followerer you cannot refuse to show them love...
God let us be Your hands and feet yes, but Lord let us be conveyors of Your heart. Come into us, make Your home in us and live through us... Because God we cannot do this in our own strength... By You alone can we do this thing right
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